I know and do not know what I am searching for.<\/p>\n
I know facts, specifics, like his name, his age, the year he graduated from the academy, that he is an Uchiha, a lone Uchiha, and that he is not here right now.<\/p>\n
I don’t know what exact time he departed from the village the night he left, even Sakura can’t remember – and she was there. I don’t know how long he had been planning to leave, I don’t know whether he even knew what he was getting into. I don’t know whether he knew what he was getting us, me into.<\/p>\n
His name is Sasuke Uchiha, that much is easy. He was, is, my best friend, my brother, my first bond, my one and only. Whether he understands that much, I don’t know. But he was angry, hurt, vengeful, and alone. Alone like I was, until I met him.<\/p>\n
Why couldn’t I save him? I was strong, we were practically equals, yet I didn’t understand and even to this day fail to do so. I didn’t understand, didn’t know just how deep the pain in his heart ran. I hadn’t fathomed just how consumed by hatred he truly was. I often ask myself what, if, I would do anything differently – no, if I could do anything differently. Could I have let him in more? Could I have forced him to let me in more? Could I have helped free the lid containing his anguish and let him unleash it a healthier manner?<\/p>\n
Could I have stopped his destructive path of self-destruction?<\/p>\n
I know he is Sasuke Uchiha and will always be Sasuke Uchiha. But I don’t know if I will always be Naruto Uzumaki to him, I don’t know whether I even exist in his world any longer.<\/p>\n
Do you ever think about me, Sasuke? Because I think about you. A lot. And I don’t think you know that, or if you do you certainly don’t accept it as the truth.<\/p>\n
Do you know how important you are to me? To Sakura and Kakashi?<\/p>\n
I don’t know how he is. Has he become an emotionless druid, incapable of reminiscing fun times, incapable of recognising the bond we shared? If not, then I don’t know how he does it. Am I really that insignificant in his life that he feels the need to heed me little to null attention?<\/p>\n
No. That’s not Sasuke Uchiha.<\/p>\n
I do know that he, Sasuke Uchiha, would never forget me, ever. Or at least I hope.<\/p>\n
Who are you? Who aren’t you?<\/p>\n
I may not come to know the new you, but that won’t stop me from trying. I’ll find you whether I know what I’m looking for or not.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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